Two days to go until the Convention and I still feel as if there is so much left undone. By this time, we should all be relaxing and just trying to do some last minute stuff. But as usual, all the last minute stuff turned out to be the all important things... I should be scared about not finishing everything on time but I'm not. Somehow I have learned to adapt that Zen-like attitude of not making the effort to control things too much but of just doing what you can and letting things work out in their own way and in their own time. I have also learned to trust the other people in my group somehow, assessing their capabilities and knowing when and when not to panic and try to take over their part in the process. So far, even if we are behind schedule, things are moving and everything and everyone has exceeded my expectations. I feel that we will still pull through just like we always do and that whatever happens, this will be a successful event. I expect people will have a lot of fun. The only thing I am scared of now is that the attendees will have greater expectations than we can all live up to. I just hope that being fans ourselves, somehow, we have thought of what other fans will want to see and expect. 2 days to go. I'm excited, I'm scared, but one thing is for sure. I intended to have fun fun fun. :)

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Excerpts from GiNnY's Diary

Last week has been full of happy thoughts and surprising revelations. Somehow I am beginning to understand things and people better. Although I understand things and people better, that doesn't mean all my problems are solved. But it does help. Once again I revert to my new Jedi-like plan. Do not control things. Do what you have to do. Have fun in the process. Let all the pieces fall into place by themselves. It used to be that I lose hope with every little thing that seems to make my happy thoughts turn a little sad. But now I have learned to think before over-reacting. After that, things start to make more sense. And somehow, the days pass by happier this way. Maybe this is my current "happy medium". If I cannot have what I want just yet, then I will be content where I am and wait.

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Nothing but pennies in my pocket
And Nothing but faith to keep me warm
Baby, then I'll be broke without it
Tell me how much for your love?

You slipped my heart in your back pocket
All that I've got to keep you warm
Baby don't leave me here without it
Tell me how much for your love?

-- "In My Pocket" by Mandy Moore

.:chronicled by senator skywalker at 8:06:00 PM:.
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